How much is enough? (March 9nd - 15th)

Since January, I’ve been writing a new short story. My schedule has been waking up weekdays at 4:30am to exercise for an hour then write 90 minutes. On weekends I do 2 to 4 hour writing blocks.

This past Monday was the deadline to submit it to my editor. In this last week of writing, I had to find an extra gear: I added evening writing sessions on top of my job, gym, band rehearsals, and time with my partner. I showed up every day, whether I wanted to or not.

I’d been wondering lately: could I unlock more from myself?

I’ve been working with a coach at the gym, and in just a few months, I have seen results I hadn’t achieved in the last two years of training on my own. He told me I was doing all the right things: eating clean, working out consistently. I just wasn’t pushing myself hard enough.

So how much is enough when no one is watching?

That week prior to submitting my piece, as I journaled before bed each night, two words kept appearing: “Tired” and “Fulfilled.”

Enough is doing everything I can, not because I have to, but because I want to - until it’s done.

My vision when I walk to the gym at 5am.

Here’s how I showed up this week:

Writing: 5h30m

Self-education: 0

Music (playing): 2h45min

Music (admin): 19h30min

*I knew going into the week that after submitting I would take one week off my full writing schedule to prepare for an album launch. Making the tradeoff in advanced helped keep me less anxious.